Torture

To me that is what homework is. I didn't like it as a child and I don't like it any better as an adult who has a child who has to do it. It is stupid and pointless. OK, I know the point is suppose to be to reinforce skills learned at school - but if you've learned the skills at school why do they need to be reinforced at home?

I have a child who takes FOREVER to do anything. It is sheer torture to me to have to make him get anything like homework done of an evening. I swear it was 2 1/2 hours a couple of days ago for him to get two simple pages done. I so wish I could go to the teacher and say that's it, we aren't doing it anymore. But I really don't think she'll be appreciative of that attitude.

I am so grumpy now from trying to get him to get done what needs to be done, that I literally can feel my blood boiling. It's that kind of nonsense that has me in the spot I'm in right now of not wanting to live this life. I don't see any end in sight until he graduates high school and no longer lives in my house. I don't know if I can endure another 9 1/2 years of this. I honestly don't. The last two since the homework got more intense have been absolute hell. I'm tired of experiencing hell in my own home.

I have no patience and I just want everybody to leave me alone. I want the kids to leave each other alone. I want to live my own life at my own pace without worrying about everybody else all the time. I've got to figure out a way to come to terms with where I'm stuck right now - it's only fair to the kids. They deserve better than my disinterest. Even though they drive me insane they are still just kids. I remember how much it sucked being a kid and I wanted so much better for my own kids. I wish I knew how to provide that something better without feeling like I'm selling out on myself!