Blah!

That's how I'm feeling lately - blah! It took me a good week to feel even close to being on California time. In the meantime, I came down with a cold or something so that didn't help matters. Then the fires started with the wind - which didn't help the fact that I had a cold or something going on, since it just aggravated whatever it was.

So I've just felt exhausted and "blah." I haven't even sat down at the piano since I returned. I think I might cancel my lessons for a while. I'm just having a hard time practicing and I hate going to lessons when I haven't practiced. I have to go in a few hours for the first time in 3 weeks and I'm dreading it rather than looking forward to it. :-(

I'm having a hard time readjusting to life - I love my kids but they are sucking the energy out of me. The constant bickering, whining, disobedience is just taking its toll. Maybe once I get over my "blah" feeling I'll be able to deal with them better. I don't know. It just sucks feeling so blah. I want to feel better and have some energy back.

I'm suppose to be writing a newsletter article for work - it's due this afternoon. I don't even have anything to say to anybody. I feel like I'll be wasting my time.

BLAH!